ISRAELI survivor of October 7th reported: ‘I was gang-raped, two of them held me down, there was spitting, screaming… I was a Jewish doll to them, to do whatever they wanted.’

Daily Mail (h/t Nita) Speaking on condition of anonymity nine months after the attack, the former tennis coach painstakingly recounted his horrific ordeal on October 7, said how it has left him feeling dirty with shame, and told how he has gained a large amount of weight from the trauma.

‘At 6.30 in the morning, when the chaos of gunfire and everything else began, we initially thought it was just sirens,’ D recalled. ‘We were certain it was incoming rockets, something we could handle by entering a shelter. At some point, we realised it was actually a terrorist infiltration.

‘A massive panic ensued, with screaming and gunshots. People didn’t know what to do. We asked the police officers where to go and what to do, but they said they would look into it.

‘Eventually, everyone started fleeing in different directions. Some drove or ran towards open areas, while others headed for their vehicles in an attempt to survive. ‘It turned into an enormous chaos,’ he said.

‘We started running. At first, you don’t even know whether to run or not, because if you stay, security forces might say “listen, we are evacuating you from here and there”.

But as he fled, D says that he was suddenly grabbed by Hamas terrorists. ‘Out of nowhere, they pounced on me. I mean, not out of nowhere – you do know it’s happening, but until that moment it seemed very distant to me. When it happened and you get hit, you go into a very, very big shock, and because I was in such shock, it was hard for me to resist. Not that it would have helped because it’s possible that if I had resisted more, they would have shot me.’

It was a gang of Hamas elite forces, known as Nukhba, that had surrounded D – all dressed in army clothes. He was unable to run very far as he was surrounded by the terrorists who punched him to the ground and held him down in a choking position.

‘They put me on the ground like something like this (demonstrates) and my head is on the ground.’ ‘In that moment, you feel a sort of disconnection from your body. At first, you try to resist, but after a while, at some point, you surrender to the situation. It was at this point, D said, that the terrorists sexually assaulted and raped him.

‘They took my clothes off. They start to spit on my head. They spoke Arabic. I know Arabic because I served in national service. I could hear them say Yahood (the Arabic word for Jew), and all these words.

‘They choked me very hard when they pressed my head to the ground and then they forcibly removed my clothes. And they were laughing about the situation. It sounds crazy. But if you looked around them, you see they enjoyed the situation.

‘At the start I said stop, but you don’t have a person to talk to, they do not listen to you. And they did it more… [saying stop again is] not going to help this time.’

‘At that moment, I am like a doll to them. At that moment, I am their Jewish doll. That is what I am supposed to do, to them, to do whatever they want to me. I was raped there. There were several people, five in total, but two were directly involved in holding me down during the assault.’

After the rape, D said could see people being taken away in cars as hostages. D said he didn’t have much strength left in him, so he hid in the stage area of the festival grounds. Eventually, people came to rescue the survivors. ‘When people came to rescue us, at first, I didn’t know there were other people there, but when I saw people coming out of that area, I realized there were people alive there, people speaking Hebrew.’

But what he witnessed on that escape out of Re’im will forever haunt him. ‘We saw a lot of people die. They cut their legs, they cut them, amputated people. A lot of dead bodies on the ground with a lot of blood.’

But while talking with people has helped, D said October 7 still haunts him. ‘I still have horrible nightmares. I don’t sleep. I need a lot of time to have a shower. Because I feel dirty.’

He also said it was difficult to see pro-Palestinian demonstrations after experiencing what he did on October 7 at the hands of the Hamas gunmen. ‘It’s hard for me to see the pro-Palestinian demonstrations happening around the world. That’s one of the reasons it’s good that I’m talking about it here.

‘It’s hard for me to see these pro-Palestinian demonstrations, these denials. They denied the Holocaust at first too, and it’s seeing how people are capable of doing something and then denying it with such confidence. ‘[It’s] as if we weren’t here, we didn’t do anything, nothing happened, [like being told] you’re imagining things.’